What Does Father’s Day Mean To Me?

by Corey
(Milpitas, Ca)

Just another day.
Just another day for me to pay for something for someone else that I will not get to enjoy.
Just another day someone is going to ask for me to do something for them.
Just another day for my closest family to text me instead of calling and saying happy fathers day.
Just another lonely day like the day before and the day after. People like me don't ask for much and we get nothing in return. People like me are like a role of toilet paper, "We get used and used than thrown away just to get used again and again."
Fathers day hasn't had any good memories since I could remember.
Funny, I felt the same way ten years ago as I do today.
What does fathers day mean to me, huh, just another lonely Sunday wishing ...would, could and am.
Nothing has changed.
Nothing has come into my life like last year and the years before that.
I can give out the world and in return I get " I need for you to do it again."
Funny because how people are.... I can mass send out the letter just to express how I feel and some will think OMG Corey is loosing it. Huh, maybe I am.
Maybe i just for once like to say, " I always hated the holidays..... It really never done anything for me.
I never gotten one of those silly ties, funny hats, yellow and black stripe sweaters and a fruit basket that looks 2 weeks old.
I have always treated myself for the holidays.
Every year I ask myself what do I want for Christmas, Valentine, birthday and fathers day and I get it and I do it.
I never expect nor do I ask for it from anyone but I guess that's why I don't get it. LOL.
The holiday has been what it always has been, Just another day. I try and try to enjoy them. I try to pretend like it means something but they don't and never have.
Maybe this is what a Superman, Batman and Spider man goes through when he is looking back on all the days that they helped the world and the world still turns their back on them.
I know what your going to say.. Someone has to make the first move....
You’r right. this is my first move.